Ch ch changes

You would think change would be easy for someone like me having moved cross country six different times. I have always been that person where if I didn't like something; a relationship or a situation that is not working for me, I would change it. Rip off the bandaid and move on, leaving red marks intact.

But...when life has a different story to be told that I am not prepared for, I freeze.

See, when I AM making the change I have the illusion that I'm in control. When life makes the change good or bad; I start to back peddle and analyze, doubt and allow my monkey mind to dictate how I'm going to handle said change, instead of going with the flow. Change will also show up in physical form if I try to push back and ignore what is. Fear will always show up in the power chakra; regarding the lower back and bladder. To make it more exciting; on the off times when you forget to throw your hands in the air like you just don't care, the thyroid and adrenals blow out - BOOM...
Leaving you at the mercy of what is, because you don't have any more fucking energy to fight anymore.

Change is certain and change is good, I have learned to embrace ALL change, because it is always necessary for us all to grow whether we like it or not.  As the philosopher, Heraclitus suggests, there is nothing permanent except change.

Wherever it comes from or what has prompted the next chapter, it is all good. Remember that, have infinite faith in the universe, and go with the flow instead of taking on the fight or flight scenario. Ultimately, you will end up in the same place where you started, and it's not always bright and shiny.

I know now that the universe will never fail me, and despite some of my past thoughts, it is ALWAYS on my side. Whether I initiate change or it comes from left field; I will welcome it at the door, stay with it, go deep and see how I  am going to master this new change life has presented. Whether it is wrapped in a beautiful pink, shiny bow or crammed inside an old, smelly grocery bag, it is always a gift. We just need to recognize the present package.

It's interesting...our bodies are beautiful intricate works of art, science and technology that we get to work with everyday.  It is a very foreign concept for people, which is strange because this is the only body we get. period. For this life, why not work with it, instead of against it. Listen to it and give it what it needs.  Then in return, it will support you in many different ways, with health, stamina and mental awareness. It is amazing...
Listen to your body, it knows what you need.  It seems like we are always responding to what it needs, whether it's a pulled muscle, an infection or even to rest when we have stretched it to it's limits and not given it what it needed to begin with.  We are reacting to what happened instead of what is happening.
What usually happens is we find out what it needs, take care of it for awhile, then when it is feeling better, we forget about it, assuming it will take care of itself.  Our bodies aren't built for sustainability unless they have a constant working relationship with all aspects of life.  Your body is part of the whole beautiful package.
We are born with a whole range of attributes including a spirit, a personality, a sense of purpose and most important, a body. All the cogs need to work together in order to sustain constant health, hemostasis, if you will.  It can be done.  But you have to pay attention and listen.  It starts with feeding this beautiful body good foods that give it energy and focus.  Use it, our bodies are meant for us to use them physically, to walk, run, exercise, and to stretch, use what you have, it is a miracle.
The most important thing is to allow your body to rest when you feel tired, don't drink more coffee or 24-hour energy drinks, rest.  If you are tired, take a break and rest, sleep.
Our body is ALWAYS communicating with us.  We just have to remember to listen and feel what is happening inside us and all around.  Thank your body for carrying you this far in life and bless it and thank it each day for how many more years it will continue to work with you as long as you decide to walk this earth.
Blessings...there is a 3-day detox for hungryforchange.com or for a more gentle new way of giving your body what it needs, check-out beautiful Kate at Innerhum.org, she will gracefully guide you into honoring your body, mind and soul and get you happening for 2014 and the rest of your life. Enjoy!

I'm a mountain girl. Born and raised in the Rocky Mountains until I moved to Austin in my 30s.  It was a dream to live where it was shiny all the time.  When people would get cranky about the heat we used to say you don't have to shovel sunshine. But then fall comes...every year and my heart drops a little.
I love fall, it is my favorite time of year.  When there is a bite to the air, football season starts and nature does it's best to paint colorful hues in every direction, but not here...  It took me awhile to realize that just a hint of fall colors came in January and the only other time the leaves would turn would be from trees that were dead from the drought.
I have made peace with the fact that it is still 100 degrees and it is almost the end of September, that is why I am going to visit my beloved mountains next week so I can be in awe of it all.  This  is how I will celebrate fall until that time when I get live in the mountains again.
I have had to dig deep these last couple of years to not allow my pleasing persona to come back, knocking at the door like a long lost friend.  I thought I had shaken that for good.  Then one by one the egg shells dropped and I took my shoes off and continued to step lightly. Only to be pushed back when I allowed my truth to be told.  I am going to allow my whole self to be on the mountain top again after being infused with the clean, crisp, cool air that my body desires at this time of the season and become whole once more, back to me.

I just got reaquainted with my blog.  I heard the other day that if you wanted to write a book, don't journal every morning.  Otherwise, you will have a couple dozen journals, but no book.  Makes sense.  It's similar to this blog, I set it up so I could write on something other than my journals and maybe share and inspire someone else.  Simple, right.  For some reason I kept abandoning it thinking it needed to be more colorful, more informative, more flash, shiny.  What is really important is the content and what is being said.

I have spent the last week acclimating my body to a new natural medication for my thyroid...Armour, which I LOVE and have found that all of my natural energy has finally been released and I am no longer able to have caffeine. PERIOD. No more Herba Mate in the morning, no Starbucks Chai in the afternoon, nope. It's decaf. green tea for this little lady for now on.  I'm incredibly happy about this new found me and so grateful for the transition, now that it is over.  More on that later.

I am in transformation mode. Every time I am reintroduced to this beautiful new me, I fee like I'm Jody Foster in the movie "Contact" (highly recommend it, but the book is so much better).  She is in the space device and she is saying "it is so beautiful" then BAM she goes down another worm hole.  It is all incredibly exciting.  I know the universe is getting me ready for something huge and amazing, but it would be nice to have that amazing french dip sandwich without my body going into revolt reminding me two days later that I did indeed have that tasty meal of fatty beef on a french baguette dipped in all it's juices.  It was totally worth it, but maybe next time I'm feeling a little naughty, I will head over to Beets on 5th for their incredible Rubin sandwich which is not only heavenly, but all vegetarian.  So good you will NEVER miss the meat and two days later you won't feel a thing except much thanks from your body.

Anyway, as I was saying about the blog, I also go down some wormholes in my writing...keep up. The perceptions of everything and anything you create go back to the KISS method.  Keep it simple stupid, but I leave off the stupid, why even go there. It doesn't matter how colorful or how detailed your project is.  It's that you created it from your heart and soul.  Anytime you create from that sacred space, magic happens.  Don't create for anyone else except you, because when you are creating you are the only thing that truly matters.  It is not for anyone else to judge, but for you to experience part of your soul outside of yourself.  That is magic.  Transformation happens all the time when you are in the beauty of the moment.  Reach out and grab it, relish in the dreamy satisfaction that you created magic and know there is more waiting at the other end of the next wormhole.

I have always wanted the best for people.  I have been a champion for all my loved ones and even people I have just met, but have never put that same energy into me. Hmmmmmmmm
Is it because I don't want to rock the boat?  We are sailing so well and it is such a beautiful ride.  I wouldn't want to tip the boat over.  (As I'm writing this the R&B song is blasting in my head).  If I did happen tip the boat over, I would grab on to the side and float with my legs lifted until we hit land. Everyone who's ever gone river rafting knows the drill, but just the thought of that even happening prevents most people from ever going on the adventure.
Why not see what happens, no one knows what is around the corner especially, on a river.  I don't need to tip the boat over to make something happen.  It has always been my mantra that if you are doing what you are here to do, everything will flow.
Oh, I may cause some disturbance, that is just my nature and when has that ever been a problem. It was a daily ritual when I was on a mission to take back my power.  Today, I'm living a beautiful, carefree life that is beyond a blessing and a dream, but I know deep in myself I am not done. There is so much more that hasn't even started for me.  My guys taught me everything I needed to know about patience, love, light, tolerance, kindness and owning my own power.  Now, I need to gather all these beautiful gifts and go forward in my journey, hoist the sails and baton down the hatches, because it's going to be crazy exciting!

The eclipses weren't to figure out what you want IN your life, it's also about what kind of life you want to HAVE.
When they, those people, talk about releasing and clearing it's not things around your home, it's things stored in the crevices of our bodies and minds.  Things we didn't even know were there that bubble up and give us an opportunity to either pop the bubble and see what's inside or continue to push it down allowing our ego to dictate who's problem it REALLY is.  Where is a bottle of bubbles when you need one.

Joy

The nectar infused within all of us
The ebb and flow of it's tide
When storm clouds become overcast
a glimmer is still present
in every rainbow, sunset, giggle or smile.
Constant reminders that it never leaves
just hidden for awhile.